Today is a day when the thought of putting on a nice outfit and going to work almost brings tears of longing to my eyes. The thought of having projects to accomplish on a computer instead of in the kitchen, of being treated like a professional instead of a referee, of having an hour for lunch during which nobody will demand I get up 79 times to get them more milk or another slice of cheese. Today is a day when I don’t want to clean up the 17 pieces of colorful tissue paper my kids decorated the floor with and then spilled water all over, a day when i don’t want to hear fights or demands or crying of any kind.
Today is a day when I’m sick of Rapunzel, sick of runny noses, and sick of my own guilt. A day when I catch myself dreaming of freedom and wondering why I’m so afraid to admit that sometimes motherhood feels suffocating.
Today is a day that makes me grateful for the cross. Grateful that Jesus called me not to a life of happiness, but of faithfulness. Today is a day when I feel how much I need Him. A day when I will keep loving, keep serving, and keep worshipping, because today Jesus is enough.
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